INSUBCONTINENT EXCLUSIVE:
health and running last year, but every time I try, it feels forced and artificial.I feel like something of a fraud even writing this - I
changed things for me massively.The worst part was putting it out into the world last year - the flash of panic that coursed through me when
I realised that I wasn't weak, or unstable, in any way.It led me to running some mindfulness running groups, to have the confidence to open
I just happened to write down the thoughts that were rolling around the raw minds of so many around me - and it engaged people in a way I
of the most beautiful moments happened at a pub a week or so later - a chap I was friends with asked me to come into the corner for a chat
We got there and he locked me in a big hug for a few seconds, and told me that he felt so relieved someone else felt the same
I forced myself to promise to be proud of every 100 metres I conquered, not to care about the pace, not to worry about what was coming
that.But then things changed
I was forced to experience, feel and decide about things and watch as they possibly fell apart.But while every day should have been a
conscious effort to tell the truth.When I struggled to grasp the nettle of any situation that fell in front of me, I forced it in the open,
rather than locking it away into the corner of my mind and hoping it was something I never had to deal with.It'll be much harder race
conditions this year - but I feel ready.In many ways my life was falling apart, but I was feeling more mentally free than I ever had before
Where before I used to see anxiety as something to try and wrestle with (but finding that it was the same as trying to grab steam out of the
air) I became passive, forcing myself to be more of a shadow than it could ever be.To paraphrase Taylor Swift: if it was a ghost, then I was
going to be a phantom.And it took an awfully long time for it to have any change
strange - and bringing it back to the point of this piece: I got faster
My 5K time tumbled to below 18 minutes on a day I was a bit hungover
My 10K race pace smashed past 38 minutes
that I was finally resting and healing both my body and mind
than specifically for power.This continued throughout the year, the run of great results making 2017 one of my worst years emotionally but
one of the best in terms of race results
in writing about something so non-techy on a website called TechRadar.Taking over the editorship this year has been one of my proudest
This site is a passion as much as it is a job, and having been there from the start and watching it grow has been wonderful.So taking over
It was going to happen at some point.Going into the marathon, the combination of an injury-disrupted training plan and the excessive London
Frustratingly slow, watching the time (and chance for glory) slip away step by step, until I get to the point where I began to crumble last
That I waited until it was right for me.I want goosebumps to start flowing as I begin to sprint towards the end, riding on a wave of
positivity that I created, not because it accidentally happened
possibly imagine feeling exactly the same way, and if you can take any step at all - any - to own a little bit of what stops you sleeping,
feelings listed above, please take the step to talk to someone about it - whether that's a friend, family member or one of the numbers
You don't need to suffer alone
Honestly.9NcVZWJfqQVVx3fKKdoCVM.jpg#
