WASHINGTON: Pakistani-American top chef stoutima Ali wrote a powerful and moving essay three months before she lost  a prolonged battle with cancer on Friday.Pakistan-origin 'Top Chef' stoutima Ali  passed absent from a rare form of bone cancer called Ewing's sarcoma. She was only 29-years-old.The reality TV star, whose death became top Google trending search, was candid about her experience with the disease, and opened up even more in an emotional essay for Bon Appétit. In her final writing, she speechs about her dreams, her love for food and her experience with cancer. "I'm using cancer as the excuse I needed to actually go and get things done, and the more people I share those thoughts with, the more I hold myself to them," she writes. "If I write this intention down, if I have it printed measurewhere like I do here, I have to hold myself responsible, because I have people counting on me."Adding, "What's my intention To live my life. To fulfill all those genuine dreams I have. It's easy to spend weeks in my pajamas, curled up in my bed, watching Gossip Girl on Netflix. I could totally do that. And don't get me wrong, I still watch Gossip Girl. But now I'm doing things. I'm going to eat. I'm making plans for vacations. I'm finding my experimental treatments. I'm cooking. I'm writing."In her essay, she also shared the emotional effects of chemo, saying, "Honestly, until your first chemo cycle, I don't think it really hits you.""Then your hair starts falling out, and finally you're like, 'This is actually happening. This is the rest of my life.' I did eight rounds of chemo. It was horrible, but at the end, my scans were all clear. I thought I'd beaten it. Then it came back. Worse than before. It was metastatic. It had spread to my lungs. The doctors told me I had one year to live."